I've never really blogged before... I guess I'll share a free-verse poem I wrote for a CA III assignment to tell you more about me.
Christina, if you're reading this, I hope you understand a bit more...
I am Sarah, lost in a world going by too fast for me to keep up.
A world that doesn't understand me.
I feel rushed and overwhelmed, trying to keep up with life as it is. I feel time is my ENEMY.
I feel pushed aside because I don't think like most others, because I am not like everyone else.
Because I am a nonconformist.
Because I am creative.
Obsessive.
Flighty, unable to keep my mind focused.
I am MISUNDERSTOOD.
When most people go out and party, I prefer sitting at home, reading, writing, playing video
games, or watching movies.
Intimidated; scared of the world and its people.
Paranoid; afraid I will wake up one day, and my family will be gone. I am afraid of being
ALONE, of being ABANDONED, LEFT BEHIND by those I had GIVEN my heart to.
Afraid of rejection.
I trust people, sometimes too much.
When I trust, I place my heart in your hands, and that leaves me vulnerable. I am easily hurt,
but good at masking my pain behind a happy-go-lucky FACADE.
I am an ESCAPIST, trying to get away from the hate and pain in the real world.
Indecisive, unable to even make a simple decision without thinking about it for at least a few
minutes.
Water is always moving, changing, like me. There are so many types of water. Liquid, ice, rain,
clouds, salt, groundwater... Quick to change emotions. Calm one moment, and raging the next.
Pisces.
I pick up on other's FEELINGS, and oftentimes end up in the same mood. When I get
OVERWHELMED by those excess feelings or from trying to meet EXPECTATIONS of society, I
let my feelings guide my fingers across the keyboard, typing up stories.
I speak my thoughts, unless I don't know what my thoughts tell me.
I am a Story teller.
Writer and reader.
Artist and dreamer.
I am a FOLLOWER, but I don't follow just to follow. I question a lot, when most followers wouldn't
question at all.
I am curious, eager to learn new things.
I am an Omega; the Alpha wolf without aggression. I make sure my friends, my 'pack', are
happy, and help them if they're not. I try to help those who need it, because their pain hurts
me.
I want everyone to know peace, not hate or war.
Dedicated.
Deep thinker.
Imaginative.
I believe what others don't. Sometimes that isn't a good thing.
I think about what most others wouldn't even spare a second to think about. I ponder the world and its
creatures.
I am easily amused.
Naive.
Quick thinker.
I am a daughter.
A sister.
A friend.
And a student.
So, who am I?
...I am Sarah. And this is what makes me who I am.
It doesn't really explain my own thoughts, but it does tell about my character...I think...
I have voices in my head. Part-time muses, full-time pains-in-the-ass. I used to hear more, but after Christina moved, they got quiet. Now I have at least 3: the twins, Sylvia and Kailyn, and the Feral, Kuga. And I talk to them, sometimes out loud (I get a lot of strange looks, but my friends and boyfriend are used to it, and don't comment on it).
...I feel they are just magnified parts of my own personality. Kai has the quiet, thoughtful, Omega side of me. Sylv is the opposite, the one who demands attention, is a leader, likes the spotlight, etc. And Kuga is the part that wants to be alone and is easily angered. But, I can see parts of them that I don't have, like the willingness to fight. I will only fight if my family or friends are in trouble, or if it is unavoidable. I just argue a lot.
I started writing an X-Men fanfic after watching the 2nd, 3rd, and X-Men Origins: Wolverine a few weeks ago. I'd already watched them, but... what can I say?
I'll post later, possibly tonight. I need to get a schedule of some sort... XP
